Sunday, September 18, 2011

My trip: 1st destination — Paris



Chopin is playing in the background. Word Document is open. The blinker is blinking. And I am typing. Letters after letters are creating words and sentences and paragraphs. As I am writing this, I am going through all the pictures I took in my trip. I took 1,179 pictures. I think that's the most amount of pictures I've ever taken in the duration of 10 days. I made sure I captured every valuable moment I had in my trip. Looking at those pictures take me back to the amazing time and wonderful places I spent and saw in those 10 days. I finally saw Europe. Or let's say, I finally saw part of Europe with its beauty, history, tradition, modernism, and many more. 9 nights and 10 days I spent there. Mon voyage s'est très bien passé. J'ai vécu des moments magnifiques à Paris, Rome, et Frankfurt. J'ai aimé ces villes. J'ai passé 3 nuits à Paris, 4 nuits à Rome, et 2 nuits à Frankfurt. It was my first time to Europe. Before this trip, I'd only seen it in the movies or pictures or on tv or in the books. Or I'd heard about it from my friends and family. Did it fulfill my expectations? Yes, absolutely! It was even 10x better than what I was expecting. What a great trip! Not only I went to great places, saw beautiful things, ate tasty food, drank amazing drinks, sat on beautiful patios, met and chatted with wonderful people, but also it was an eye-opening trip. Let's just say I have new expectations from myself, new sets of goals in life.

I leave Ottawa for Frankfurt on Thursday, September 1st 2011. My flight is at 7:40pm with Air Canada. I'm supposed to be at the airport at 4:30pm, 3 hours prior to my departure. But as usual I get there very early. It is only 3:15pm. I don't like airports. And I don't like the security people at the airports. After the very disappointing treatment I received from the American security personnel at the Pearson Airport in my trip to New York City, I always make sure I have enough time to spare in case of having another bitter experience like that. It's part of the terrorist by birth and appearance in the today's world Mr. Bush and his fellows created. Anyway, everything goes very smoothly. I get my boarding pass and check in my suitcase. I am traveling very light. I've only packed the necessities. And in my purse I have my French books, camera, valet, and passport. The airport is very busy since it is the last long weekend of the summer, and then kids are going back to school. So everybody is going somewhere.

Everything goes well with with the security. I even beep while walking through the gate. But the security guy looks at my gladiator sandals and lets me go without doing any body-check. I get a coffee from Second cup and find a quiet spot to sit since I still have 3 hours to my boarding time. Reading french while drinking hot refreshing coffee with a beautiful view of massive airplanes landing or taking off. What a joy! But I'm too excited about my trip to enjoy that moment. I could barely get any sleep the night before since my brain didn't stop thinking. Gosh, I can't wait until my feet touch the ground of Paris. I was counting down to this trip for almost 2 months. Now I can hardly wait to be there. It's finally time for my boarding. Surprising, the 3 hours waiting time went by very quickly. My seat is between some very very fat guy whose body occupies almost half of my seat and some very very cute guy whom I check for his ring finger first. And yep, he's taken. As always, Air Canada is very disorganized, and the flight is delayed. We finally leave Ottawa around 8:30 with no explanation of the delay. But that's the last thing on my mind. I just want to leave already. And I'm finally on my way to Paris. First stop is Frankfurt and then Paris. 11 hours, I'll be there in 11 hours. Then I will go to Rome and then Frankfurt will be my last stop.

Paris. So beautiful! Why does it mean that much to me? Is it because Dad loves it? He says it's his most favourite city. Or is it because it is where Mum and Dad's love story started? I always think what if they'd lived there longer. I always think what if I'd been conceived there. What would have changed in my life? What if ... There are so many what ifs in life, but you can't always live with what ifs, or you'd always be dreaming about things and miss out on the things that you can achieve yourself. After all parents are humans too, and they decide for themselves. Good or bad, it's their life. So it's not my position to question them. I'm finally in Paris, and I can see its beauty with my own eyes.

It's the city of gray. It's not a depressing gray. It's calm. It's beautiful. If I want to pick a music for this city, it'd be Para Elisa by Beethoven or Nocturne by Chopin. You know, something calm but at the same time exciting. It's for sure classical piano. I spend 3 nights and 4 days in this beautiful city. It's the city where you find joy in simple things. Joy in eating a baguette, croissant, or fresh mozzarella with sliced tomato topped with olive oil and dill. Mmmm... Joy in drinking a fine red wine. Joy in watching a beautiful painting. Or joy in walking by Tour de Eiffel. Or just sitting on a nice patio and watching people. Simple! It's very simple and pleasant. I see people with a drink, only one drink and a book spending hours and hours at a cafe or a bar. They're enjoying the moment. Drinking is not meant to get drunk. It is to enjoy. Food is not meant to stuff. It is to enjoy.

Cobblestone paved streets is one of the main features in Paris. We see it here and there in Ottawa or Montreal too, but it doesn't feel the same. People commute to work with their scooters or motorbikes. Or the majority drive mini-cars. Unlike North America, you can hardly find any SUV there. I also find Citroën, my childhood car, my Mum and Dad's first car. Oh, seeing that car brings back lots of good memories. I find crossing the street quite confusing in the beginning. If there's no one crossing the street even if the traffic light is red for the cars, they don't stop. But as soon as they see you, they stop until you cross the street. And Parisians hunk a lot. One thing that I notice in Paris is that dogs are allowed to poop on the street. And the dog owner doesn't need to pick it up!

The buildings are amazingly beautiful in Paris. They are not tall. They are bulky. They all look the same in one area and then they slightly change in the architecture from one to the next. They are standing strong and beautiful. Most of them have a fenced terrace, all aligned with beautiful pink or red flowers on them. The windows are narrow and tall. Even their government building are beautiful and historic. There's a union and harmony is the architecture.

I find Parisians calm and friendly despite what I heard from others. They are not arrogant nor hostile at all. They like you when you try to speak with them in French specially the seniors, but most of them know or understand English very well. The fashion is very different there. They are very well dressed and very attractive. Beautiful men are everywhere. Long messy hair, light eyes, skinny and tall wearing a scarf and a vintage jacket over a v-neck shirt with skinny jeans. Yumm... The Parisian women are in heels even on Sundays and even in the park while pushing the stroller or walking their kids who are also wearing chic clothes. And you can hardly find any obese in Paris. And almost everybody smokes there.

I stay at a beautiful Hilton Hotel on 51-57 rue de Courcelles. What a great area! Surprisingly, unlike other Hiltons this one doesn't have a pool. And to use the GYM you have to pay. The decor is very beautiful. Tall ceilings, beautiful colours, lovely patio, great bar, nice restaurant and a beautiful yard. My room is very comfortable. It is very clean and specious. And the complementary breakfast is amazing. Salmon, boiled egg, 2 different cheese, tomato, cucumber, fresh baby mozzarella, feta cheese, jambon, cereal, scrambled egg, mushroom, sausage, bacon, all kinds of bread and fresh croissant, many many fruits, juice, coffee, tea, and water. Oh, it's lovely! I'm in heaven. I meet a cute Canadian on the elevator. We are both on the same floor. He sees my mini Canadian flag on my purse and asks me where I am from. And I ask the same. He was born in NF, raised in Montreal, and now he lives in Denmark. He's in Paris for a business meeting. The hotel is also close to Parc Monceau. On a beautiful warm, sunny Sunday, people lie half-naked on a blanket and tan under the sun.

Chanselise, I finally get to see. My dad always talks about its beauty. And he's right. It's so beautiful. Cobblestone paved street, old unique looking trees, les colonnes Morris, great patios on the street, beautiful buildings, famous fashion boutiques: Dior, Armani, Patrick Roger, Chanel, Gucci, Louis Vuitton, and many more. And I see the beautiful Boulvard Des Chanselise. Arc de Triomphe and the Champs-Elysées, so lovely! But there are also so many beggars on Chanselise. And one thing that I wouldn't try there again is the food. Because of its location, the food is expensive and not good quality.

Tour de Eiffel, there's nothing like it in the world. It's the most beautiful tower I've ever seen in my life. The architecture is amazing: the lines, the arcs, the positive and negative spaces created within the lines. She's standing tall and proud by the Seine River. The view of the sunset looks magical there. It's breathtaking!

The Lourvre and Musée d'Orsay, I finally get to see the masterpieces by Da Vinci, Monet, Manet, Renoir, Cassatt, Degas, Van Gogh, and many more. There's a big line-up for those museums. But it's so organized that it only takes me max of an hour to get in. And it's all worth it. And who says you can't take pictures there?!

Montmartre, what a beautiful neighbourhood with narrow, steep, cobblestone-paved streets, stairways, hidden gardens, cemeteries, and vineyards. You get a beautiful view of Paris from there. Painters painting, writers writing on the old-fashion typewriters, nice patios, great food and drinks, nice stores, live street- performers, beautiful art galleries, and many more. There's nothing like it.

Overall, Paris was beyond amazing. Two thumps up to Paris and the Parisians. I will definitely go back to my dream city. À bientôt, Paris !

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Merci, français !



I look at the mini-clock on my desktop. Il est 20 heures 25. Quelle heure est-il à Paris en ce mement ? Il est deux heures 25. Ici, il est samedi encore. Mais, à Paris, il est déjà dimanche. Là-bas, il est tôt le matin. People are sleeping. I'll be there in almost 4 days. J'ai hâte...

J'ai vraiment besoin ces vacances. I haven't been since the New Year. Part of the preparation for my trip has been practicing my French. I've been learning it by myself so far. And of course, I've had so many helps on the side from my friends and my coworkers, especially from my good friend Daena and my good coworker Carole. I couldn't have done it without them. I must say, I myself can't even believe the progress I've made for the past 2 months. When I come back from my trip, I'll be taking French classes. And I'm aiming by the New Year, I'll be speaking this beautiful language fluently. I did it with English, so I can do it with French too. Who know... If I get so good at speaking it, I may even consider moving to France. Well, if not that far, then it will be Montréal. Or I'll run for the prime minister. Haha! Watch out, Harper!

Je pense en français, anglais, et farsi ces jours. Mes rêves aussi sont en français, anglais, et farsi ces jours. Ce n'est pas bizarre pour moi. But people may find it confusing sometime since I accidentally respond in French or Farsi instead. It's been a great experience though. And I am glad that i decided to do it. Especially at this time, I really needed something to distract my mind from the things happening around me. Alors, français, merci bien pour l'aide.

Without you, I would have felt more:

non désirée

triste

fâcher

seul

inquiet

idiot

and many more bad feelings.

Main, tu as été rendu possible par moi que j'ai au moins mauvais pressentiments. Et aussi, tu as fermé des nouveaux portes par moi. Merci !

Friday, August 19, 2011

Simple but strong...


WORD OF THE DAY:

It's a good feeling when you can easily say, "I love you!" to someone.

and I miss that...

I love you! (English)
Je t'aime ! (French)
Doostet daram! (Farsi)
Wǒ ài nǐ! (Mandarin)

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

pass for pause de midi


So, finally, I decided to go to Paris, the city that I've been dreaming to go visit for so long... I always pictured myself going to that city, the city of romance, 'with', you know... 'for', you know... So I kept postponing, re-postponing, and re-re-postponing Paris to further notice. But then I said, fuck it! I don't know when that 'you know' is going to happen. And life is too short. How much longer am I supposed to live with 'you know' and 'you know'? So it's happening. It is really happening. I am going -- I am finally going to Paris, the city of romance.

Part of my preparation for this trip, which I can hardly wait for, is improving my French. And I am learning it by myself. I took French way back in high school. But really at that time I didn't learn much. I mean I didn't pay much attention in the class. To me classes like math, physics, biology, and chemistry were more important than French since I wanted to major in science at university. I am kind of regretting that, but the past is the past. It's never too late. And now I am learning. And also one of my coworkers at work talks to me in French everyday. That's the beauty of living in Ottawa. I have so many people around me who can speak French. And that is awesome. So there's no excuse for me not to learn this beautiful language.

I am getting better... I can read and write now, but I still have a hard time speaking. And here's something funny happened today:

It's 12:30pm at work. I tell my coworker en français, "I am going on a 10min lunch break to the cafeteria". She looks at me, nods, and with a big smile gives me her pass*. I look at her puzzled. "Why is she giving me her pass?", says the voice in my head. So I say it loud to her, "why are you giving me your pass?". Now, she's confused. "Didn't you ask me to give you my pass to go to the cafeteria for 10min?", she asks.

Here's where the confusion came from: en français, lunch break is pause de midi, but because of my lovely pronunciation, she thought I was saying pass instead of pause. And this is the beauty of learning French by yourself! But at least she kind of understood what I was trying to say...

*Where I work, you need a pass to get into the building or go from one floor to another.

Friday, July 22, 2011

Paradoxes Modernes



I found this on Youtube and really liked it. www.youtube.com/watch?v=AhSHPkoj6Ig&feature=share

Le paradoxe de notre époque est que nous avons plus de connaissances mais moins de patience et de tolérance;des autoroutes plus larges mais des points de vue plus étroits. On dépense plus mais on a moins, on achète plus mais apprécie moins. Nous avons de plus grande maison mais des plus petites familles, plus de commodités mais moins de temps. On a plus de diplômes mais moins de sens, plus d'éducation mais moins de jugement, plus d'experts mais plus de problèmes, plus de médicaments mais moins de bien-être.

On boit bien trop, on fume bien trop, on dépense sans réfléchir, pi on ne rit pas assez, conduit trop vite, on se fâche trop, on se couche trop tard, on se lève trop fatigué, on ne lit pas assez, regarde trop de TV et one ne médite pas assez.

Nous avons multiplié nos possessions mais perdu nos valeurs. On parle trop, aime trop rarement et haïs trop souvent.

On a appris a gagner sa vie mais pas à la vivre. Nous avons ajouté des années à la vie mais pas de vie aux années. Nous sommes allés sur la lune mais il nous est difficile de traverser la rue pour rencontrer un nouveau voisin. Nous avons conquis le cosmos extérieur mais pas notre chaos intérieur. On fait des choses plus grandes mais pas meilleures. Nous avons plus d'hygiène mais nous avons pollué même notre âme. Nous avons conquis l'atome mais pas nos préjugés. On écrit plus mais apprend moins. Nous planifions plus mais accomplissons moins. On a appris à se stresser mais pas à patienter. Nous construisons des ordinateurs pour retenir plus d'informations, produire plus de copies que jamais auparavant, mais nous communiquons de moins en moins.

Nous sommes à l'ère de la restauration rapide mais de la digestion lente, des grands hommes mais des petites personnalités, des profits record mais des relations superficielles. Nous sommes à l'ère de 2 revenus mais avec plus de divorces, des maisons plus "fancy" mais des foyers brisés. Nous sommes à l'ère des courts voyages, des couches jetables, des basses mœurs, des nuits sans lendemain, de l'obésité, et des pilules qui font n'importe quoi, de donner du pep, à endormir, à tuer. Nous sommes à l'ère des showrooms bien remplis mais avec des entrepôts vides.

Rappelez-vous de dire, "Je t'aime" à votre partenaire et vos bien-aimés, mais, surtout, pensez-le. Une bise et une accolade soulageront un mal lorsque sincères. Souvenez-vous de vous tenir la main et de chérir ce moment présent parce qu'un jour cette personne nous quittera. Prenez le temps d'aimer, de parler et de partager vos pensées précieuses.

Et n'oubliez jamais que la vie ne se mesure pas aux nombres de souffles que vous prenez mais par les moments qui nous coupent le souffle.

Sources:
Le Dalaï Lama, le Dr. Moorehead et sans oublier George Carlin

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Well, there is definitely one thing that I can't change about me!



Tuesday, July 12, 2011

I look at the time on my computer. It says 8:21am. I am at work, busy with some boring project. To make it less boring, I am listening to my favourite musics. Very loud! Very very loud! "Damn, I LOVE THIS SONG". Yep, I'm dancing now. Sometimes people find me dancing behind my computer. But I don't care. And they laugh and walk away. Sure, I'm a weirdo! But I love it...

...
Will you be sticking with me
When the money's gone?
Will you be sticking with me
When the money's gone?
Will you be sticking with me
When the money's gone?
The money's gone, the money's gone
...

AAAhhhhh, new email. Ok, what is it now?!?! Meeting, @ 8:35 in my boss's office. Well, that's enough notice, isn't it? I look at the time. It says 8:32. Ok, getting ready for the meeting.

...
I got a funny feeling.
I got a funny feeling.
Like the geeky kid in the ladies shoes.
Who's he think he's fooling?
Another year of ruling your own.
...

It's 8:35am. I'm still in my chair. Let's wait for another minute. It's only one minute. 8:36am, ok! let's go!

B: Good morning!
R: Good morning! You look nice today!
(Why is the old project in front of her?! Why?! I'm not changing it. Fuck, I'm tired of redesigning the same thing over and over again. Bahar, shut the fuck up. And sit down)
B: Oh, thank you! You look nice yourself too. Love you top! Where did you get it?
(Are you bullshitting again?! Why is the old project in front of her?! Why?! I'm not changing it. Fuck! Ok, Brain, seriously, stop it! She's talking. You need to listen. It's rude! Bahar, what the fuck?!)
B: So... what's up?
R: Yes, we need to talk about this project.
B: NOOOOOOOOOO, I'm not changing it.
(Bahar, what the fuck! And you had to say it loud!!! That was very professional, wasn't it?! I'm being sarcastic by the way. You, fooooooool!)
R: I know... you're upset. Trust me, I love love love your other design. But he wants it more blocky!
(I hate when people use those stupid words to describe what they want in the design. I want it blocky. I want the colours more crispy. crunchy, sexy, text-bookish, and many more... It's the fucking design we're talking about. Can we use some proper terminology. But it's not her fault. She's just a messenger. And to be honest, she's a great boss. I'm still mad though. Bahar, shut the fuck up.)
B: So... basically, he wants something ugly. I can't do ugly. I'm a graphic designer. He can ask some desktop publisher to do it for him. Or he can do it himself. You know what... I'll do it, but I'll only spend 30min this time.
R: I know you're upset. But he's the client. So...
B: It's totally fine. But I'll only spend 30min this time.
R: Sure.

Leaving her office, but not going back to my desk. I need some fresh air. Or my brain wouldn't shut up talking. Oh, sun, I love you! You make me feel better. 20min later, and I'm back at my desk. Ok, let's finish this project, and start working on the ugly design. "I'll only spend 30min on the ugly design". My computer time says 9:15. Let's PDF this sucker and work on the new one. I need music. Loud, very very loud...

...
Don't stop me now
I'm having such a good time
I'm having a ball
Don't stop me now
If you wanna have a good time
Just give me a call
Don't stop me now
'cause I'm having a good time
Don't stop me now
Yes I'm having a good time
I don't wanna stop at all
...

Haha, I'm having a ball... Yeahhhhhhhh... A big ball! Love it! I love Queen. I love Freddy!

Ok, I need to mask this part, here. And command 'J'. Adjustment, ... Damn, it looks good! Ok, I need to change this part too. "Oh, who cares"? "Well, I do. Can you stop it, brain? You're being very annoying. Do your job"!

...
Is it worth the aggravation
To find yourself a job when there's nothing worth working for?
It's a crazy situation
But all I need are cigarettes and alcohol!
...

Yeah, cigs and booze... I can be their groupie. Oh, Noel! I love him. And his accent. So HOT! Oh, Bahar! You're such a whore in head. "Did you just call yourself a whore? Your least favourite word?"

Why am I shaking?! Oh, someone is tapping me on the shoulder.
"Hey, it's time to go home!"
"What?"
It's 3:00pm!!! PDF, done! And that was my 30min!!! Oh, Bahar! You just can't... You silly perfectionist!

Hi, my name is Bahar, and I can be an emotional freak designer sometimes (AKA most of the times). But the word 'ugly' doesn't exist in my dictionary. At least my day ended happy.